writers block

sometimes it's hard to produce anything of worth. it can be disappointing for the audience, of course, but as i find myself in this situation i can't help but believe my own excuses. there is something to be said about a person who can find a story in anything. i just happen to have lost my touch, hence why i started blogging (not that i'm actually getting anywhere with that). and so when i read mundane blog posts or various status updates and tweets about how exams are coming up and how busy everyone is, i just feel bored. if there's one thing i despise in the world, it's wasting my time, but who am i to judge? i find myself in the same situation! my very own blog has been lacking in content. i've only been looking to lose myself in someone else's life while, continuously procrastinating as i push everything further and further back. blogging can be like a diary, sometimes nothing eventful happens that day. but when i find myself unsatisfied, when my ability to research, investigate, analyze and plan are completely lacking, i go by feeling.

last week, i took a few photos and decided i would wait to post them while i stay toronto, pretending to study. problem is, i have no story to accompany these photos, nothing to match the outfit. i just wore it, because i felt like it. and that's kind of how things go sometimes. life isn't always about following a plan, sometimes life is just addressing how you feel (pun intended). and everything artistic comes from a feeling, doesn't it? atleast, that's what i've always maintained.

i did some editing on them, and i couldn't decide which i liked best. so here's my miss-match outfit post, it's a little bit miami vice, but i like it. sometimes the best things happen when you just go with your gut!

jacket is H&M conscious collection, the bag and necklace are vintage, shoes are my faves from aldo.

so if blogging is like a diary, why can't i just talk about how i feel sometimes? it's my point of view. i don't need to try to hold myself to a higher standard, i should just be me - not that i haven't been, but you know what i mean... anyway, followers i guess are like friends. they like you for who you are and what you have to say. alot of bloggers are as popular as they are because they share their personality and their day to day lives. and once again, that's me connecting the entire world to my own personal life experiences. such is truth though. this is the human condition. the desire to be a relatable person is natural because of our inclination to be connected to one another.

i am also just kind of bumbed that my internship with TWB Co. is coming to an end. Ashley has been great and i learned so much, but i'm left feeling like i may not have done that much for her. sure most of the website issues have been dealt with, but it's still not 100%. and she's getting ready to go back to the store in Lake Rosseau with some great apparel we helped her select. but nothing has come of the magazine and blog front just yet. i mentioned in a previous post what it meant to me to be a contributing influence, even though i'm not directly selling to people. it just goes to show that things don't always go as planned. maybe i should have followed up more diligently but ashley had me doing other things she thought were more important. no excuse as far as i'm concerned but the job only lasted while i was physically there. ashley wasn't concerned with having me go out of my way for her because i had been doing this just to do it. i didn't fulfill any hours for school or anything, i just wanted to learn. anyway, i feel like a failed at what i wanted to do for her so i'm a little disappointed but i can say that working with her gave me a bit more direction for the future. so thanks ashley!